The Wall

I am an emotional and sentimental creature and because of that I’ve fallen in love hard.  Because of that I am very protective of the beings that I love and I keep my friends close.  I’ve given myself completely and I live passionately.  I would do anything and everything for others and as a mother I would lay my life for my children in a second.  I am there for my friends when they need encouragement, I cry with my sister when she is sad, I am the glue that keeps my family together.

In spite of all that, in the past I would sometimes sit and wallow in darkness.  I thought I was a worthless being with nothing to offer the world.  I couldn’t stand looking at myself in the mirror because of my size.  I felt alone and afraid.  I considered myself a “nobody”.  The insane thing was that I wasn’t a “nobody” and if you asked my family and friends they would share how “happy go lucky” “always smiling” “sweet” person I was, not a single one of them knew about the torment I would put myself through. 

We all have different reasons for ending up in this world of darkness.  This world of darkness can prove to be a difficult to come out of, but anything worth having is worth the fight, and coming out of that darkness is well worth every ounce of fight that is in you!

Believe me, I am the queen of circumstances… Circumstances have caused me enough pain to put up a wall as big as The Great Wall of China.  But one day, I realized that this wall wasn’t just “protecting” me of outsiders, it was actually keeping out the goodness of life out as well.  I realized my walls were drowning me and I was the cause of my sadness.  One day, I had to wake up and take responsibility.  I had to wake up and do something about it.  I had to allow myself to be vulnerable and I had to learn that vulnerability didn’t equal weakness.  I allowed myself to go into to deepest room of my dark place and face my demons. 

I won’t promise you that it will be easy and I won’t promise you that it will be quick, but I do promise you one thing… This side of the wall is absolutely beautiful.  This side has beaches with warm sand, and greenest grass you will ever see.  This side has opportunity and truth.  This side has family and friends.  This side has love.  This side is SAFE.

Give YOURSELF a chance.  BELIEVE IN YOU.  YOU are stronger then you can ever imagine.  YOU are smarter than you think.  YOU are creative and YOU are just… PERFECT.  You are capable of anything and everything that you set your mind to.  IT’S TIME.  It’s time to let go of your fears and insecurities.  It’s time to stop beating yourself up.  It’s time.

It’s time to start living as the creature that you have been created precisely to be.   You don’t believe me? Consider this…

Women, do you know that we have the power to cure a broken heart with a hug and a scrape with a kiss?  Did you know that ironically your soft skin has proven over and over to be as tough as steel?  Do you realize that you are a creature that loves unconditionally and that you can express anything from sadness, grief, pain, to happiness, laughter and pure joy with tears?  Do you realize that you give yourself for others constantly?  You fight when you see injustice and do whatever it takes to help your family succeed? 

Men, do you know that it is your strength that leads your family?  Do you know that because of you, your wife and children are able to sleep soundly? Do you know that because of your loyalty, honor, pride and courage everyone in America can wake up daily with the freedom of choice?

Consider this….. (fill in the blank)

 

From my heart to yours,

LRP